I took her home at 4 weeks.She had to have a special prem baby milk that cost double what normal formula cost.When she left hospital she weighed ,4lb 5oz!
The birth had taken its toll on me,i never admitted it to anyone at the time but i think i suffered post-natal depression.I cried every day for the first year.I did`nt feel like her mother,i just felt like someone who was looking after her.I really don`t think my bond with her started untill my own mum died when baby was 18 months.I felt guilty for feeling like that but i felt that if i told doctors etc how i felt they would take her away.Irrational,but thats how it was! I was eventually diagnosed with post natal depression when she was 2.
She had a few health problems,asthma was one.The doctor we were with kept saying she was`nt asthmatic,but lots of my family suffer so i was sure i was right.I moved her to another doctors who diagnosed her.By the time they did she had to have steroid inhalers.Always trust yourself we parents basically know our own children.
I can relate to that. Post Natal Depression is a tough thing to deal with. I suffered with it after having Melissa. Tony didn't really understand and pills didn't help so i had to deal with it all by myself. Its good that you got the help you needed in the end. :)
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